territorial marking + identity conflicts - personal case studies
hi friends! sharing another case study with you guys today.
I think one of the most helpful things to do in learning GNM is reading about or listening to peoples’ actual experiences with the framework. it’s easy to hop on learninggnm.com and read through the “heady” material. but it doesn’t really come to life until you’re willing and commit to having an experience with it!
if you’re new to GNM or have absolutely no idea what I’m saying, start with the post below:
below the paywall is a video with the full stories! enjoy!
nitty gritty:
in my personal circumstance (and generally all ectodermal tissues have a similar pattern of adaptation), the adaptive + restorative processes are the same for both conflicts! as a right handed male with “normal hormonal status”, it is challenging for me to conceptualize why my system adapted this way with two different contextual themes (ie conflict themes). alas, I trust my system and don’t really NEED to know.
I’ve written about these conflicts as it relates to the digestive system. you can read about that here:
today, I’ll be talking about how these conflicts are playing out on the lower end. I find these conflicts / expressions to be common for women in the perinatal season, especially in conjunction with what is commonly labeled "reflux”.
conflict themes:
remember, each conflictual experience has some contextual theme or energy. how we perceive an experience or moment is dependent on the quality and integrity of our nervous system, which is influenced by an accumulation of beliefs, concepts, identities, and beyond.
how an experience is registered, which is out of our conscious control, ultimately dictates which tissues are involved. you can work backwards by observing the involved tissue and tracing it back to the conflict theme / origin.
identity conflict
what is my role? my place? my identity within a community or “territory”, etc.? how do I fit into this space / group?
context in second video
territorial anger / marking
challenge, frustration, encroachment upon, disputes, anger, crossings, arguments, etc. within external “territory” - the place, the home, work, partner (especially for men)
context in second video
tissue(s) involved:
rectal surface mucosa (ectoderm-derived tissue)
conflict active phase (this was my experience):
psyche:
ruminating thoughts / myopic attention on the “problem” at hand
example 1: feelings of not being the “expert” in the room, unsure of my place amongst the GNM “masters”, etc.
example 2: frustration in the territory / home
brain:
hamer focus (ring shaped formation) in the relative
“territorial” regions of the temporal lobes
tissue / organ
ulceration / tissue breakdown of the rectal surface mucosa (ectodermal tissue)
biological purpose - widening of the rectal tissue to better facilitate marking of ones territory / establishing one’s place/role within the territory
remember**** ALL adaptations have a biologically meaningful purpose. this is the basis of the fifth biological law. this reminds us that all “symptoms”, labels, “diagnoses”, etc. are not random, ill-intended, or reflective of our “brokenness”.
these conflicts can also adapt various tissues in the digestive tract, but there is an incredible amount of nuance!
resolution:
solving the problem at hand - literally, internally, or removing oneself from the situation (moving away from); generally, when something that used to be able to happen CAN’T happen anymore (for whatever reason).
more context in the second video :)
restoration / healing phase
tissue proliferation/restoration via inflammation, swelling, etc. (potentially with bacteria or supposed nucleic acid protein compounds (supposed vir@l particles) (aka hemorrhoid :) )
a little pain / hypersensitivity of the area
for the present adaptation, I am posting this on day 8 and have noticed a 60-70% reduction / tissue restoration. I believe it’s taken this long (in comparison to the conflict load) because I likely have a KCT program running as well which drives greater fluid retention. the increase in fluid retention can intensify restoration “symptoms” and prolong total repair time.
supporting myself
generally speaking, I don’t utilize much when my body is going through a healing phase. I make sure that I am honoring my foundations - time in nature, in the sun, nourishing myself well, resting as needed, staying connected with people, etc. so that my body has it’s natural bandwidth and internal resources to repair and recover. but beyond that, I allow.
the greatest practice in a healing phase is to get out of the way. your body knows much better what to do for you than ANY practitioner, coach, protocol, etc. this doesn’t mean I would never do anything, but so far in my experience the less intervention or interference, the better.